INFIDELITY

INFIDELITY!!!

It is probably a very touchy subject but i think it needs to be spoken about, as it is something that does happen in relationships and it shouldn't!!

Infidelity is not just sleeping with someone else, but it is also flirting and sending messages to that person telling them things that you should be telling your partner not just a random (This is my thoughts on this).

This man right here>> is truly 100% the love of my life, he makes me so happy and so lucky to have someone that loves me no matter what has happened.

I know that many of you who go on to read this will change your thoughts of me and that is perfectly ok as everyone is entitled to their opinions but this is my story and this is my life and i am being open and honest.

I made an extremely bad choice late last year, that lead to me cheating on my husband, it was an extremely F#*@ed up decision that i made and i know it shouldn't of happened but it did. Now i am so thankful that my husband continued to love me throughout this ordeal and never gave up on our marriage, as hard as it was to get through all the pain and hurt that i caused. It certaintly wasn't easy to see my husband hurting and going through anger issues, anxiety and depression all caused by what i had done!

When it all came out i used a knife to cut my legs and arms as it was a way of dealing with what i had done and yes i know it is not the right thing to do, but it was something since a teen that i had used to deal with my pain and hurt and feeling as though i deserved to cut myself for all the pain and hurt i had caused my husband. It took a lot of effort for my husband to trust me again and to realise that i always loved him and never stopped loving him even though i made a huge mistake in our marriage.

We spent every night together crying and trying to rebuild our marriage, something that was having issues before this issue even happened but i made it ten times worse than it needed to be. I did and still do everything i can to prove how truly sorry i am for what i did and that i have never and will never stop loving him because he truly is my everything.

Roll forward to this year and my husband spent many nights at the gym and met an international girl who he got a photo with and helped trained her to do squats etc and she even donated to our go fund me account for IVF (will talk about this in the next blog), He went and picked her up one late Sunday night from a "supposed party" and i had an extremely bad gut feeling just like he did when i had strayed, i went through his messages on his Instagram and seen what he was saying to this girl and i absolutely lost it just as he had when he found out what i did, but this girl took it a million times further by sending me a heap of inboxes and trying to ruin our marriage ten times more, not that it wasn't suffering enough from us trying to have a family and not looking out for each other (more in next blog).

Infidelity is not right in any sense of the word, but it does happen and you both can repair your marriage if you truly want to and truly love each other!! No you will never forget what has happened but you can forgive that person, because both parties shouldn't have to suffer being mentally abused for what they did as they are still human and we as humans make mistakes and need to learn from them not be punished for the rest of our lives (if their a serial cheater then that is a whole other level).

We both truly love each other and have made the effort to repair our marriage and do things to appreciate each other more, rather than letting the love burn out. We have written little notes each day to show our appreciation for each other. Instead of spending nights on the couch watching t.v and being on social media, we put our phones down for a few hours and just cuddle and talk about the journey that our lives are going to take and were we see ourselves in 10 years.

What i am trying to say is Infidelity is wrong, but if your love is strong for each other and your willing to fight for what you want then you will fight till your last breath to love, appreciate and make your relationship work. Because we have made it work and are still making it work.

"A successful marriage requires falling in love many times, always with the same person." ~ Mignon McLaughlin

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